when
what was received
as a punishment
is being embraced
as a grace
what seemed unbearable
becomes
enlightening
abusive
no one is abusive
by decision
though it does not make us
less abusive
when that is how we
behave
motion
wind
whirling dead leaves
to the earth
while stagnated thoughts
of the mind
are softly set into motion
and life begins
to flow
devastating
being governed by
a conviction of
unworthiness
which is ruining
every attempt
of fulfilment
is devastating
dissimulation
when our weakness
is no longer
prone to
dissimulation
what is
is finally given
an occasion
to be
unendingly
reaching the end of
forbearance
might be
the beginning of the end of
ยจ
repression
to let
the reality
of unconditional love
unfold
unendingly
repressed
nervousness
repressed
yet
recognised
nervousness
that the sensation
of suffocation
is not yet entirely
metamorphosed
into abundance
of love
dusty
a dream of sublime beauty
after a dusty door
in the heart
had been pushed open
by the most wonderful light
of a longing desire
reaching towards
peace
raw
a soft wind
chasing the leaves
as fall is falling
towards decay
leaving only
the raw structure
of nature
to endure
the transformation
embracing
facing
and embracing
the shadow
of shame
is inevitable
on the path
to reconciliation