being useful
is relative
according to the mind
and the state of mind
beholding the utility
of the situation
on hold
holding in
holding on
holding out
holding up
holding to
holding fast
holding true
piercing
sun is piercing
through the grey
announcing yet
another day
of light increasing
wrestling
leaning into confidence
after a life of
suspicion
takes more courage
than what seems
humanly possible
while wrestling with
the righteousness of faith
greed
being silent enough to perceive
the purely personal needs
might reduce
even when just a little
the greed
leaving space for the experience of
peace
awe
perceiving the flame
of light eternal
even if
only at distance
is just as powerful
as it is tender
awakening awe
in the receptor
combing
combing old patterns
gently undoing
the tightened suffering
of encrusted emotions
while the mist dissolve
to let sunshine in
flattened
haunting headaches
hurrying
flattened frustrations
to their true dimension
barrage
leaving behind a realm
of judgement and justification
can feel like
an explosion
in the back of the mind
the break of a barrage
finally allowing
what was always meant
to flow
heavy
while waking
in the darkest of dark
facing a reality
too heavy to bear
it might be time
to let go
of the conviction one has been trying
so hard
to sustain