what a strange night
full of radical changes
in the fields of the mind
changes of constellation
invisible to the world
and so very consequent
to the one
who is
even if silently
exploring
the multiple layers of
what cannot be seen
echo
a buzzard’s cry to the morning
tearing the silence
and a very blue sky
over the treetops
illuminated by golden
morning light
the echo inside
reflects the vast space of silence
left behind by a difficult day
only
waking up into severe pain
even if only emotional
is not a pleasant place to be
what the only is supposed to mean
in the hierarchy of values
is half the pain already
only meaning
that emotional pain
is to be considered
a lesser pain
since it is only taking place in the mind
but emotional pain
can be
as nauseating
and as paralysing
as any physical pain
and the only
only shows
a considerable lack of compassion
no matter whether the only
is to be found
inside the brain of the suffering in person
or inside the brain
of the surroundings
phantoms
a long nights sleep
can also be an invitation
for the phantoms of the mind
to celebrate
they are there
invisible and omnipresent
with no possibility to be silenced
before they have delivered their message
rarely in a lenient manner
mostly pushing up old wounds
as to remind us
that they never healed
once the party is over
and morning dawns
there Is no other choice
than beginning to complete
the work that was left undone
no matter how long time
ago
surrender
one advantage of a sleepless night
can be to receive greetings from the owl
it was not singing for long
but long enough to erase any doubts
about its presence on the territory
an endless amount
of small clouds
were illuminated from underneath
by the rising sun
the colours still sharpened after the rain
and the light still golden
a good day to surrender
indeed
appearance
rain past during the night
not enough to nourish the deeper layers of the soil
but enough
to change the appearance of the surface
every colour gaining in intensity
as the dust is washed away
it could be the rain
that disturbed the sleep
but other agendas
seems to have had their word to say in these matters
something surfacing
from deep inside
to change the appearance of the surface
revealed by the generous light
of a golden sunrise
kissing the changing aspects
alive
pleasure
wakening into a wave of love
is a different kind of delight
nourishing the whole being
but particularly the roots
swelling into the ground
in pure belonging
it might be
when pleasure ends
that our boundaries define themselves
not as an intellectual decision
but as a natural border
like a river of love
defining where one person ends
and the other begin
but pleasure is essential
to reach the understanding of
who we are
in whatever form
we choose
slowness
grey morning
permitting observations
of silence
left behind by the birds
whom are no longer eager to sing the day in
no longer defining their territory
through the beauty of their voice
inhibited experiences
surface in the memory
as the muscles are releasing their grip
softened by the heat
and the rhythm
of summertime
and slowness
frustration
irritation
as if
something important had been lost
out of negligence
and lack of care
as if
every effort was understood
as something else
than what was meant
followed by a considerable frustration
of not being able to care
nor dare
to speak
ones heart
light is withdrawing
slowly but visibly
the immobility of summer
is healing the wounds
of the world
and the withdrawal of the light
can be received
as an invitation
to expand it inwards
project
having a project
is very human
and more than acknowledged by society
one could say
encouraged
set out
as the ultimate state of being
a project
whether it is ones own
or the one of someone else
is considered a justification of legitimacy
that might explain the unease
in waking up to another day
with no plan
with no list of things to do
in order to reach the standard
whatever that standard might be
an unease
it can take time to overcome
in this complex sensation of going against the current
combined with the deep trust
of being carried afloat
by the mystery
that reaches beyond
the boundaries of human understanding