living according to
the rhythm
of our desire
or living according to
the rhythm of our heart
are two different mandates
our freedom is
to choose
beginning
beginning a new life
can very much look like
a sheer repetition
of what was already
and yet
something is
changed
as the cornerstone is no longer
the same
maelstrom
and below
the euphoria
of loving
without guilt
runs all the emotions
guilt had so meticulously suppressed
suddenly mounting to the surface
with no restraint
nothing to
moderate
nor regulate
their maelstrom
and all there is to do
is facing them one by one
with love
compassionate
what a
compassionate light of mercy
indeed
when love is given
to find its expression
without shadows
of guilt
whilst
building up a life
from the ground
can seem
unreasonable
whilst
we are in the middle of it
yet
what has never been done
has never been done
and there is no other way around
than to lie down
a proper foundation
if we wish
the structure.
to stand erect
and be ready
certainty
when certainty
is no longer dependent on
material security
a door opens softly
towards wisdom
as a secret
delicately
unfolding
hold on
slowly
gently
softly
accepting
to
get hold on
while
the past many years were
mostly about
letting go
positioned
in between
guilt
and confidence
love
can only
increase
waiting for
the mind to settle
the heart to be positioned
and the body
to heal
particular
leaving behind
a way of being
might also mean
leaving behind
the beings
on that particular way
waist of time
trying
to belong
might just be
a waist
of time
while
we all belong
somewhere
without effort