Author: nanna

when cuddling into

the illusion

of being

a good person

is no longer an option

the certainty

that whatever good

is running through our deeds

comes from elsewhere

seems more plausible

and the habit to please

other peoples

caprices

has no longer any reason

to be

receiving an angel

can in itself be

a daunting experience

being carried through the day

by an army of angels

is beyond words

and yet

so real

being in the proper place

at the proper time

means

a constant listening into

the call

of the present moment

in order to give

the proper answer

and leave

when where we are

is no longer where

we are supposed to be

to observe

the eager to convert

withdraw

like a shadow

retracting under the presence of light

might be

the beginning of

a conversion into mercy

when vulnerability

is no longer considered

a weakness

as something to be ashamed of

and overcome

on our own

since

entering it means

being a burden

and being a burden means

losing what we need

to stay alive

it is no longer a question of staying alive

but about being alive

even while

dying

trying to make mercy

fit into the law

is a dangerous game

so utterly tempting

in the eager

to justify

what can only be received

as

mercy

when nothing turns out

as planned

and expected

yet

everything turns out

as it was meant to be

the distance between

failure and success

is only a question of

flexibility

believing

that anyone

or anything

can be

a shortcut to become

who we are

is mostly at the cost of

a considerable deviation

which does not mean

anything was waisted

only that

the shortcut did nothing but

prolong the journey

being cross

might not feel

very wise

though

when one is

perpetually being

double-crossed

it can be considered

a natural reaction

not necessarily to be acted upon

but conveniently acknowledged

for what

it is

softening

deeper layers

of withhold tensions

to let unrest

turn into restlessness

gently leading restlessness

towards

the task

which

executed

in freedom

liberates the memory of

whatever had been

hold back

and gives rest