learning to speak up
when
the condition for survival has been
conditioned by
the ability to keep quiet
can feel like
walking upside down
up river
going against
the convictions
of those
we love
can feel like
swimming up river
in spring
bunch
discovering that
what
one has wrestled with
over and over again
to make fit into
the reality of one’s perception
is but a bunch
of lies
unsettles the structure
of the mind
until
it becomes visible
what is to be found
behind
perilous place
being trapped in an emotion
is a perilous place
to linger
all the more
that being trapped means
we depend
on someone
or something
to liberate us
naught
it can be important
to observe
when there is no buoyancy
in the mind
since even the brightest thought
can drown under such circumstances
which does not mean
creativity is naught
only
that there is no buoyancy
in the mind
at this certain stage
of life
leaving aside
having the courage
to do
only
what is
to be done
leaving aside everything
which is done
to satisfy
expectations
or imaginations
about
what is necessary
to become
who we want to be
rather than just being
who we are
rubble
when the inner structure crumbles
and the inner structure
is all
one
has
to rely on
it is but normal
that life is put on hold
until the sacred has come to the surface again
under the rubble
experience of wonder
befriending death
can be
an experience of wonder
where
fear no longer
rules
discerning
discerning what might be
our proper needs
nothing to do with
expectations
nor
imaginations of
who we would like
to be
is like opening
a treasure
causing
when a heart has been told
over and over again
that
loving is sinful
it ends up closed
causing the current to find
its own ways
of expression
though barely aligned
with truth