stepping into

acknowledging our unworthiness

and stepping into

vulnerability

is a way

to let

what is beyond

division and distinctions

act through our doing

identifying

no longer to identify

with the identity

we are given

but gently revealing

the nature of

who we are

in all its unworthiness

and all its glory

is indeed

a relief

course

to take precautions

perfectly aware

no precaution can alter

the course of nature

in an expression of care

preparing the necessary

for the mind to keep calm

and stay focused

during any storm

which cannot be

avoided

deciphering

a solitary owl

singing

lullabies for insomniacs

deciphering desire

with a daunting determination

to enter the transfiguration

of guilt

crushing

when the will to do well

is crushing under its feet

the need

to be good

what was given in

a loving embrace

is received as

a living hell

distant

awakening into

turmoil of emotions

distilled into consciousness

by dreams in the state

in between

sleep

and awareness

as a greeting from a distant relative

who reminds us

what we have been trying to forget

ever since

we remember

impediments

stepping out of guilt

into imperfection

acknowledging the urge

to live

for what it is

an urge to live

not some human thinking

no longer holding it down

in shame

but clearing the passages

from impediments

to let it run freely

when it finds the way

to nourish everything it passes

all along

a sudden impatience

to live

after years

in dead waters

in the fullness of time to answer

the call

which has so patiently been whispering

from inside all along

independently of the expectations

otherwise ruling consciousness

separating what was always solely meant

to be whole

incapacity

being unable to

repent

is depriving oneself

for mercy

and no matter how many explanations

not to mention excuses

are to be found

for this incapacity

none exempt any for the responsibility

of learning

to place our flaws before

the compassion of

forgiveness