it is not necessarily about
understanding
it is first and foremost about
accepting the reality
in every dimension
ours
being unable to take care of
what we are given
can mean
we are trying to take
a responsibility
which is not ours
to carry
justifying
when beginning to justify
who we are
the sense of being
is already
lost
charitable
pity
without obedience
is as poisonous
as compassion
in obedience
is
charitable
revulsive
being given to see the beam
is at first
dreadful
even revulsive
to a degree where the mind prefers
to find excuses
and explanations
in order
not to go there
in order to make it seem
something else
than what it truly is
yet
once it is revealed
and taken in
as the truth
it carries
healing can
begin
common
confusing the sacred
with the profane
is a much more common
affliction
than we tend to
believe
when holding the fulfilment of
our desires
as the goal to aim for
and the prove of righteousness
in what we do
whereas descending the sacred
into the profane
by elevating the profane
into the sacred
can only happen
where no confusion
is allowed to reign
techniques
it happens
that the most gracious gifts
are wrapped
in the most unpleasant paper
as if
the giver
was to make sure
the longing for grace
is stronger than
the disgust of unpleasantness
though there are no techniques
to obtain grace
only a decision to
accept it
there are ways
to remove the obstacles
which makes us refuse
mercy
fulfilling
trying to escape
who we are
is a long procession
of failures
where nothing is more
fulfilling
than to love
the ones
we love
afraid
the fear of losing it
is where we begin
to sink
though perhaps
there is no other way
than acknowledging fear
and lean into faith
rather than trying to act
as if
we were not afraid
facts
confusing the feeling of
being understood
with the fact of
being loved
can be of detrimental
consequences