held high
by envy
can be a just as potent
as petrifying position
to be in
weaving life into
a mesmerising design
of half truths
and complete lies
path
placing trust
in the fathomable
is calculation
placing trust
in the unfathomable
is faith
either path
leads
beyond
though it might be necessary
to choose
path
governing
myriads of impressions
intertwined in memories
coming to the surface
throwing light on behaviours
which for so long
had been governing all the more peacefully
than invisibly
the ways of the mind
into the dead end of
rebuking
a smile
unpredictable
knowing oneself to be
unpredictable
is unpleasant enough
in itself
being blamed for it
on top
while struggling to make ends meet
despite the lacking
is unbearable
struggling
struggling to satisfy
the wants and wishes
of the outside
without listening
to the needs and deeds
inside
builds a prison
with no place
to hide
prove
having nothing to prove
can feel like
being useless
yet there might be
an essential presence
in that particular kind of
uselessness
much
so much tenderness
so much light
so much compassion
so much
to give
generating
no one should be hold
responsible
for our own
personal
wound
though we might observe
what has generated it
in order to adjust
our behaviour
and choose love
where fear has ruled
heavy heart
tenderness unfolding
into a heavy heart
bringing lightness of being
into the dark
perception
being told
over and over again
that the impressions
of one’s perception
are false
is a source of perpetual confusion
which it can seem
impossible to
uproot