approved

searching for approval

is a natural compulsion

of the human mind

perhaps impossible

to eradicate

though we are given the freedom

to decide

by whom

we wish to be

approved

imposing

having spent life

pushing

it can feel

illegitimate

no longer to do so

until it becomes a habit

to reveal

what is already there

rather than imposing

on the world

what was never meant

to be

pillar

finding oneself

standing

in a pillar

of the compassionate light

of mercy

while being under an assault

of powerful

accusations

can be

an experience

of bliss

quiet wonder

having lived

with a blurred vision

and suddenly being able

to see clear

is a quiet wonder

to be treasured

and pondered

in the heart

spending

sometimes we are exhausted

simply because

we are not given

to fulfil

our purpose

hence spending our strength

trying to be

what we are not

goodness

one thing is

to trust

in goodness

and believe in all

that is good

another thing is

to be convinced

we know

what is good

putting

no longer permanently

putting

a restraint on oneself

is about

the most natural thing

one can experience

and yet

to reach the summit

of that freedom

might lead through

the valley of tears

and the forest of shadowland

sudden shift

a sudden shift

of mood

undermining hope

or calling back

to reality

depending on

how it is seen

calling for attention

no matter what

leaving no room

for hesitation

careful

being thoroughly careful

and living in a permanent mess

might be a source

of perpetual unease

it might also be seen

as an expression

something is not yet

properly aligned