techniques

it happens

that the most gracious gifts

are wrapped

in the most unpleasant paper

as if

the giver

was to make sure

the longing for grace

is stronger than

the disgust of unpleasantness

though there are no techniques

to obtain grace

only a decision to

accept it

there are ways

to remove the obstacles

which makes us refuse

mercy

fulfilling

trying to escape

who we are

is a long procession

of failures

where nothing is more

fulfilling

than to love

the ones

we love

afraid

the fear of losing it

is where we begin

to sink

though perhaps

there is no other way

than acknowledging fear

and lean into faith

rather than trying to act

as if

we were not afraid

facts

confusing the feeling of

being understood

with the fact of

being loved

can be of detrimental

consequences

less

staying faithful

to truth

can sometimes be

less obvious

than being faithful to

what is held to be

true

in the moment

afflictions

being given to dissolve

some of the obstacles

inhibiting the river of love

to run freely into the world

can be considered a punishment

a difficult task

a complicated challenge

an awful affliction

and

a steady falling rain

of blessings

differentiating

listening

to the voice of wisdom

can sometimes mean

going against

what is believed

to be true

leaving us with

the challenge in differentiating

wisdom from knowledge

truth from reason

belief from conviction

with no need for further

justification

contradictory

preaching for peace in the world

with a war going on

inside ourselves

somehow seems

contradictory

growing

allowing all the things

we cannot see

to grow visible

in their own pace

is also

grace